As I sit outside in the freezing cold (yet apparently warm), enjoying the sun in Canary wharf, waiting for my lovely but notoriously late friend, James. I wonder what 2012 has brought us.
I look around at people walking and notice the side of the Thomson Reuters building, it has an economic news ticker streaming around the entire side of it - having not seen something so elaborate in little Australia, I am pretty impressed but then feel heavy as soon as I take in some of the headlines "ECB's Orphanides wants to stop making banks pay for Greece" and "Global Economy could ensure disarray for a week" to name a couple. I then realise why the majority of people are walking around looking like the weight of the world is on their shoulders, because to them the world is actually ending in some way or another.
2012 provided a massive jump; people have leapt forward in whichever direction they were focussing on. It has propelled people further along in the dominant vibration they held. Have you felt the extreme pressure which has come in various forms early this month? There is an apparent intensity which has placed a spotlight on certain themes in your life, specifically things which need to be released, if it hasn't happened for you yet, hold on it is yet to come.
Those who have been worried about the economy are further propelled into it. Those who have been focused on the world ending in 2012 have been propelled further in that direction. But, for those who have been focusing on compassion and love, well the world is opening up like never before.
Amidst a wash of navy and black suits power walking around the wharf I am struck by the sight of two people around 55 or so, on what seems like a lunch time date. Their energy is more akin to two teenagers, not wanting to say goodbye, wrapped up in the feeling they are embracing. How wonderful is it to consider that these two led a full life full of love and heartbreak, rich in vast human experience, and the greatness of love was still coming for them. The couple hold on for a long goodbye and walk away, she turns many times to look back smiling from ear to ear.
I'm reminded of the many people I have met thus far on my journey on Earth this time round, who have somehow found themselves in quite a pickle; they have shut off to their heart. Do they walk a path inevitably destined in a life half lived, arriving at a moment sometime in the not so distant future when the dissatisfaction of what is really sets in?
Romance doesn't need to be your focus, in fact I would recommend it not be, but love and feeling should be. Many don't know how to sit in the upper regions of feeling now, programmed to seek out drama, disappointment and heartache. Some people operate their hearts like a computer, allowing and disallowing portions of emotions. I wonder what will happen when the walls break down, and every single emotion restrained floods in, somewhat like the image of Niagara Falls rushing through them.
This is a world I am really unfamiliar with, everything I teach - and everything I believe in is based upon one thing 'What do you feel?' and that answer will direct you to your Divine truth. Yet, you cannot ask that question from a head space - let alone answer it, it only works from a heart space.
I now sit at home, reading and writing the rest of this blog and wonder what the theme of this blog is - and it suddenly comes to me. It is all connected, the collapse of governments and regimes, the collapse of the global financial market, it is all connected. It is all based upon head, there is no heart accessed in any of these scenarios.
Where the heart does not dwell, nothing can live, nothing can survive.
Is this the reason for the apparent unravelling of society, which some might say is definitely long overdue, or is it as others have prophesied saying that this was always destined to happen at this time? Maybe it's both.
2012 has brought with it this ability to know - for those who really want the answers. And let me tell you it isn't for the faint hearted. If you really want to know WHY things have been so for you, if you really want to unravel your own emotional mess which has kept you up at night, the time for answers has arrived.
For me personally, it brought with it a deeper understanding on relationships, the difference between a soul contract, and a true romantic pairing - and then all varities inbetween.
Just before New Years, I caught up with my 'Twin Flame' (a term I have mentioned a few times already so I won't explain again), for 2 years I had punished myself for not understanding or accepting the fact that he did not see me as clearly as I saw him. But that statement in itself contained the answer which was long eluding me. For me, it was impossible to feel any connection with anyone new, how could I? How could they compare to someone who reads your mind, talks to your heart while on the other side of the world, and lightning crashes in front of the both of you - yes that really happened! But now things were different, I was able to clearly see that we were in really different places, and we are not meant to be around each other right now, and that was perfect.
Then out of nowhere someone appeared, and Spirit brought the synchronicities which were necessary for this person to reveal themselves. I had seen a photo of this person on FaceBook about 4 years ago in another country and immediately sensed a connection there (and he was also hot).
So, in London, we end up synchronistically coming across each other, and he matched some very specific predictions which were made a long time ago. Ok Spirit, you have my attention, what next? When you meet someone it is because you have called eachother close energetically, you have arranged it in Spirit prior to you coming to Earth. Sometimes (and preferably) it is done on a compatible level, both of you are in the same vibration, which is how you attract and perceive each other. There is another way though; when someone calls out to Spirit for help - sometimes this is conscious or unconscious, Spirit sends help, and then sometimes that 'help' ends up being me, or you, again - often without us knowing.
For this to work, this soul needing help lifts their energy a few steps to perceive the other. Then the assistor focuses on them which then shifts the 'needers' natural place. The 'assistor' will somewhat 'descend' to assist them. The more the assistor focusses on this the more energy floods to the 'needer', shifting their circumstance, sometimes it can give a type of euphoria - like some sort of spiritual drug. It creates a completely new reality around them. It shows them that things can be different, and my energy then allows it to be so. I often wonder if having me love someone would be the best treatment you could prescribe for someone's life. Do you see how this is the case with all interactions in life - to varying degrees of course.
This while sounding amazingly magickal, means that if the other person is not giving back equally - and in this scenario they never can, it ends up draining and can lead to feelings of depression as you literally get sucked dry. I finally realised how many fall into the trap of wanting someone to love them when the object of their affection is not truly capable of loving themself at that point, it is sort of like saying 'I know you can't love a goldfish because you are worried you might kill it, but how about loving a whale instead, does that make it better?' and then saying 'BUT IT'S A WHALE!!!', and thinking that would make some sort of difference.
Try to not waste any time investing certain types of energy in places which cannot handle it. As humans we can subconsciously slot into two types of archetypes in relationships, the 'givers' and the 'takers'. It doesn't mean that these 'takers' are always that role (they may be), but in this interaction that is their dominant response. The only way this changes is with some sort of path altering event, or indeed losing the 'giver'. Make sure you are aware of what is going, be honest with yourself, Have the strength to walk away from something which does not truly honour what you bring to the table. But either way, enjoy the flow, the old saying'Where one door closes another one opens' is actually very accurate.
So my tips for January 2012 are as follows:
•If you feel off, there is something you need to let go of but do not want to.
•You can't 'work' at a relationship, if it isn't working, it's already over. Let it go, it may come back, it may not - but it's perfect either way.
•Many people take from you, and they take for many reasons, you get to decide how much you want to give - and that is perfectly reasonable. The real treasures are those who give to you, without prompting, and this creates a flow of giving and taking from both parties.
•Whatever you focus on will come to you, no exception. DEBT, LONELINESS, LACK, SORROW, or LOVE, ABUNDANCE, FULFILLMENT, PEACE - you get to choose.
•There is so much right with the world, focus on that. Nothing else.